Poison

Slowly, but surely, you are being expunged from my life ..

Its funny what time away from this horrid place can do for my sanity ..

Our blog has finally been erased (after 3 months of "purgatory" it was placed in)

Then slowly, realisation hits ..

I felt lower than dirt during the final month ..

I am even more ashamed at myself for allowing YOU to put me there ..

I will not allow myself to be abused this way ever again.

Now, on to Bucharest!

I Need to Leave!!!

I'm done with all of this.

I so need to leave.

I need to get out of this country.

I'm becoming a very horrible person.

This place is bringing out the worse in me.

I'm losing everyone slowly. I'm losing myself slowly.

I really really hope my 1 month hiatus away from this place will give me back the old me ..

The Spunk, The Drive, The Tenacity.

The Sweetest 5 Minutes

As I replayed the events of yesterday, only one word comes to mind.

Friendship

As we were all saying our goodbyes, I couldn't help but wonder when we will meet up again ...

I would be lying if I said I was confident that we would all see each other soon enough .. and it wouldn't just be because one of us was getting married ...

But, as ST hugged me in her drunken stupor, she started rambling. To everyone else, she was just plain drunk and being silly. But to me, it was the most meaningful thing she had ever rambled to me ..

" For the 4 years in Secondary School.
For the many times she would call me during the examination period to ask me about work.
For the many times in class when she would irritate the hell out of me and fight with me to no end.
For the times she protected me even though I didn't want to be protected.
For the times she would call me to help her call someone else.
For reminding me that she would always be there for me, even though she is never physically around.
For loving me the way I am
For saying sorry for having taken me for granted
For saying thank you ... "

You have no idea how much those words meant to me(I wouldn't be surprised if you don't remember anything).

But, it took me out of that dark place that I've been in for awhile now.

Thank you for having faith in me when others didn't.
Thank you for always "waking me up" even though you do it in the most tactless way ever. Thank you for that 5 minutes last night.

I Love You Too ....

"DELETE"

My favorite

Toffee Nut Latte is BBAACCCKKK

Yes, my favorite Xmas season drink is back ...

And thanks to DH, I got my very first fix of it ... and was promised many more to come!

Here's to the start of CHRISTMAS!

The Teenage Textbook Movie

Taken from http://www.youtube.com

Remember this movie ?

I had a chance to watch it again tonight on YouTube and it definitely did bring back a lot of memories ..

I guess, at this point, the one thing I would really like to have is a nice date. Something sweet. Nothing complicated with kisses or even hand holding or even .. yes .. s** .. just 2 people who genuinely like each other ...

I remembered our first date.

Pump Room
The toy Ferrari car
Drinks at China One
The long walk along the route of the F1 Night Race
Getting caught in the rain at Esplanade
The 4am cab ride home ..

It was the best date I had ever had ..

The Irony ... My Wish ..

Taken from http://www.youtube.com

I will never understand why I would like this song.. Perhaps its catchy, perhaps its the lyrics ... Perhaps its my one and only wish ...